wanna start a bisness~ yoroshiku

 hey gurlz..

one day, my mom back from school,

she said, "ikah, how about we start a shawl bisness?"

n i said, "why not? i love wearing shawl" 

n tadaaa~

my first attempt in bisness

hope everyone can give me support in this

our first batch,

macam cantik je, macam comell jerrr

laiii3x, murah je i jual

sehelai RM 15

utk permulaan, aku jela tunjuk jd model kejap..

pakai je macam biasa shawl ni, tp dia ada 2 warna, 

sebelah warna kosong n sebelah lg, corak2 yg matching ngan dia..

seswai sgt pakai dgn t-shirt, blouse n baju kurung.

colour : royal blue

our first customer, my cousin, really happy coz she like it~

besides, we will take request on the colour n the size of the shawl

sometimes, someone likes to wear it labuh, like me..

colour : royal blue, chocolate n maroon

colour : green, royal blue and choco

berminat?
juz msg n we will deal,
or u can juz drop comment in the comments section
or u can pm me through fb or my email wannoor_89@yahoo.com.my

How I met Your Mother

aku penah kata

"hahh? how i met your mother? apa kejed aku nk tgk org depress cite pasal jumpe mak mentua"

hihihikkk

tula org kata, xtgk, cmne nk suka n jatuh cinta, n true
i'm falling hard for this series

start from first episode until now, season 9, it never make me boring
gelak, gelak, gelak..

tp series ni agak 'berat' kalo nk bg org memuda tgk, ahakkzz..

i mean, i will never introduce this series to one of my brothers, it will be disaster to their moral

klo kengkawan, ok kott, sbb masing2 dh besar, dh pandai fikir baik n buruk

sama macam series 'the nanny', series yg aku xkan lupa sampai bila2..
tetiap hari tgk kt channel hallmark dlu, klo hari ahad dia ada sampai 5 episod, fuhhh~

memang xkering gusi, tp sama cm HIMYM,
abg aku akan kata "haa, tgk la citer yahudi, depa tu nk bg rosak angpa ja"

"tgk, laa ni ang kata org yahudi baik n kelakar sbb tgk cite depa"

padahal, dia pon tgk~

but, betul apa abg aku kata, kita org Islam selalu ditanam kan sifat xsuka yahudi dan perangai dieorg, tp bila kita tgk cite yg depa buat, persepsi kita akan berubah,
cam the nanny, dia selitkan 'mizvah' n so on..
selitkan simpati pada dieorg pasal perang ngan hitler dlu, buat kita simpati pada dieorg..

n HIMYM plak, dia selitkan, it's bad to think bad about gay n lesbi
it's common in their culture, the choice is theirs
kita kena terima dieorg
kahwin laki-laki xsalah, dieorg jatuh cinta n khwn, siap ada anak lg.
hahakkk~

yeah, it twisted my mind for a bit, but, what do u think if a 13 years old boy watching the series?
oohhh, i can't imagine~

i hope my bro will not know this series, skang sume dh pandai cari kt tenet, huhuhu

their life style, it's scary sometime, play around, sleep around,
urghh, alhamdulillah saya dilahirkan Islam di negara Islam

tapi HIMYM sgt seronok sebenarnye, jgn la ikut yg xbaik, ikut je yg baik

bg aku, ted's journey, make me think about me
his journey to find 'the one'
yg sangat pnjg sampai 9 seasons, tu pon xjumpe2 lg

buat aku fikir, "ehh, kita sama la ted"
your friends is getting married, mine too..
hahaha~

kesimpulannye, jgn ikut dieorg, tgk je sudah, gelak2, nangis2, stop, tutup laptop, lupakan
jgn jd kan pedoman.. hahahaha

FYI, the main actor is jewish > Ted Mosby,
Barney > a gay << dh khwn, n mungkin sbb tu byk diselitkan pasal gay, uffffhhh~

yeahh, i'm a geek

 


# the kids sometimes make me feel like urgghhhh~
# the teachers sometimes make me feel hurrmmmm~ *sighhhhh*
# the friends? i don't know, i'm empty without them..

anak-anak for another 3 weeks~ be nice to ur "kakak" please..

again n again

again and again and again, aku tulis sume nye dark2 belaka
FACT, my happy moments is not worth to share here,
my most dark thoughts n feeling certainly wasn't needed here
 but here is the only place i can poured my heart out

so please, gurlz..
back out if you're not ready to be depressed
hahaha

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that's the line
if u're still reading, i'm hoping that u're prepared to be in dark

actually, I'm crying, again, for the same reason

why can't men be considered to our feeling?
to be spesific, MY feeling

huhh, when i'm decided, that's it!! i'm not going to fall for the same trick again,
there, come the new trouble


i can't say NO

baru perasan skrg yg aku kebanyakannye xpenah tolak apa2 yg dtg pada aku
sejak dr kecik lg aku dh biasa dgn, go with the flow~
ikut je kemana jalan yg diberikan pada aku
walaupun x nampak apa2 di hujung jalan, mungkin hikmah nye tersembunyi di sepanjang perjalanan

itu yg aku selalu pegang
mungkin lama2 aku xsedar, aku dh jadi lalang, ditiup ke kiri, ditiup ke kanan
mungkin aku perlu lebih kuat utk mengatakan TIDAK!

Bila satu jalan ditutup untuk kita, dibukakan satu jalan yang lebih baik untuk kita

; )

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ok, that's it
that's all the dark thought in my mind

gurlz, the weekend after raya, i've got invited to attend Bulan Sabit Merah punye seminar
n guess what, my mom said maybe it's good for me to learn to do CPR
kahkahkah..

so, next time we're going swimming, don't worry about it
juz prepare to mouth-to-mouth wif me jerrr

all my life, aku selalu cakap CPR = Ciuman Penuh Rakus
yarhh, excited to do it!!

HAHAHAHA~

no-lahh.. not sure about it yet, sorang2, konpem la aku xkan pegi kann
tapi, ngah usaha nk try ajak akak2 lain join, kalo ada sorg je kawan mmng aku g kott
ada sijil tuhh.. dah tua2 cmni baru rasa syiok nak ada sijil

sklh yg aku ganti skrg, sume cikgu pangkat suami-isteri org, hanya aku je single
bila sampai masa balik, 5 minit je dh clear sklh..
boO00riIiiinkkkk~~

mana2 nk g pon xleh, sbb xde geng, xsyok juga jadi sorg je single dlm kalangan org2 dh khwn..
 

 tapi satu je syiok, sbb aku leh dtg lmbt cm dieorg, yelarr,
dieorg dtg lewat org cm xkisah sgt sbb yelar,
 sibuk nk antr ank ngasuh la, urus anak g tadika la n so on~
so, aku pon menyibuk di kalangan dieorg utk dtg lmbt..
wakakaka..
1st time rasa g sklh kul 7.10, sampai sklh cukup2 je b4 loceng bunyik 7.30
ishh3x, pe nk jadi

start bulan november, kena cari keje lain balikk~

rupanye aku leh je handle budak kecik, budak kecik je xleh handle aku bila dtg perangai gila2 aku
aku ingt lg, spupu aku penah cakap, "kak ikah x suka budak2 kan???"
reason dia ckp cmtu sbb aku paling xsuka layan dia masa dlu2

rasa tergugat kottt~, bila dia dtg umah, suka nk manja2 ngan mak i
i kan bongsu pmpn, mana leh manja2 lebih2 dr i

hahaha..
evil gile aku dlu~

tau aku jawab pe masa dia tanya camtu
aku jawab, "HA'AH, mmng xsuka, nape?"

n bbrp thn sblm ni, mgkn tetibe teringt kot sbb tgk aku layan ank2 sedara aku,
dia tanya lagi.. "kak ikah dh suka budak2 ke skrg?"

evil gile aku rasa time tu, xtau nk taruk muka tang mana

angguk jela mampu..
maaf ye dik~

kak ikah dulu, xmatang lg, tp skrg pon sama je xmatang
bila ada budak pmpn lain nk manja2 ngan mak i, aku mula rasa jeles balikk
bahaya tull klo dh khwn nanti, jgn la tetiba jeles xtentu pasal, mau kena pelangkung..

dia skrg pon dh form 3, ngah PMR ponn..
n dia pon sbnrnye nampak lg matang dr aku, beza umo punya banyak.. hahaha
harap2 dia xbaca la aku tulis ni, sbb dia pon aktif juga ber-blog, hehehe

dari sikit je nak cite, melalut ntah kemana-mana dah

moral of this week,
hargailah cikgu angpa masa darjah satu dulu
ingat senang ka nak ajaq budak bagi kenai huruf, faham huruf, faham ejaan, faham perkataan,
faham cara membatangkan perkataan?
fuhhh, sy insaf bebehh

rasa nk menangeh tahan geram bila budak xblh-blh nk membaca sedangkan kita dah ajaq banyak kali

cikgu kita dulu sangat penyabar orangnye kann~
cikgu aku masa darjah satu dulu, one n only is my mother

she's the one cakap 'padan muka' kat aku masa ngadu kt dia pasal bebudak tuhh xpandai baca
mesti macam2 doa cikgu kita hembus kat kita supaya terang ati n cepat dapat tangkap

bersyukur saya pandai membaca hingga boleh menulis entry yg panjang berjela macam ni
terima kasih cikgu2 ku

hanya Allah boleh membalas jasa kalian.


end.

I have to survive this year

juz another 2 months to go
chayok2 wan, u can do it

next year, i'm 25 years old n still in searching phase
most of my friend already achieved something but i still searching

i don't know what i want to find, but i'm pretty sure i'll know it when i found it
either my career or my love life,

Oh Allah, please make it easy for me
Give me Your guidance towards success

for my parents n me

I really want to make it reall

hepy

rasa mcm sgt2 dsayangi arini..
pas keje yg xsampai setengah ari tu, << seyes, kul 12 aku blah.
nanti aku citer bab tu.. dia kena masa yg pnjg baru leh habis cite..

rite now, i'm here, in marrybrown
borrowing internet for an hour to search for work
 n u know what the happiest thing?

my mum is there wif me,
scrolling the requirement n responsibilities for the job

jobsearch

 
setelah tanam anggur yg xmembuahkan hasil selama beberapa bulan, akhrnye aku mmng dh xsbar nk mula kje balik..
ngan ati separuh semangat + kawan yg sgt semangat,kami pergi ke ipoh (ipoh je ponn~) utk mencari sesuap nasik.. ecehh~

berpeluh pusing satu greentown cari kje yg xdela perlukan skill sgt utk kje, barula rasa cari kje zaman lama..
zaman skrg dpn lptp, ktik2 ngan jari je dh apply job..
mmng sgt2 lain rasa dia.. kaki sakit, ati pon sakit. penat2 pusing sana-sini, 1 je job yg reply suh g tebiu
ampehh.. kesimpulan : cara lama = cara baru. dua2 xde hasil. huhh!!

so, arini jejak kaki kembali ke ipoh(bg aku, ipoh tu besar laa.. 1st tyme g sndr ipoh,slalu abh yg bawakan.. huhuhu)

pas intebiu yg xberapa nk berjaya coz bos nye out station ke k.l < mmng la tersangat hampehhh.. penatt auu jalan jauh2, 2 jam tu dr bagan serai.
kawan kepada kawan aku, bw kami ke sini.. jajanggggg~

nama dia terpampang besar kat dinding tu, opkos la tempat utk graduan2 n jobseekers cam aku
upenyer lama dh menda alah ni ada kt ipoh nunn.. aku je xpenah tau. huhuhu
maklumla, duk kat ceruk..
after register, bg resume n so on.. akk tu tnya xnk join ke tebiu terbuka? ehh, silap 'cik'..
org skrg xleh pggl kakak2 ni, berasap je kepala dgr kann..
mmng terbaik layanan dieorg, xlokek menjawab soklan2 aku yg ala2 budak kmpg masuk bandar tuhh
mmng 1st review = 5star

langkah kanan ler kami arini..
ushar2 le mana ada job vacancy yg company dia dtg tebiu

sumenye 1 je vacancy, yg dtg adala dlm 15-20 org..
mmng berjanggut la tunggu..

2nd review = 4 star sbb job vacancy xkena ngan org yg dtg (mybe kami terjah tembok xkena kott, kena tang ari xbyk vacancy)

tgu dr kul 3 utk 1 je job tebiu, berjanggut tunggu, kul 4.45 baru pggl masuk tebiu.
 3rd review = 3.5 star

sbb dh inteviewer dia pon cm dh kalut2 nk hbskan candidate, maklumla dh nk balik,kul 5 kann..
sikit jela dia tanya, angguk2 je dia bila aku goreng pasal human resource, yg tebiu tu gurl (otai2 cm blh wat geng je,sengeh2..)

dh habis tanya, here comes the killer question

"u blh handle ke pekerja asing, bw dieorg medical checkup n so on.."

desperately "bolehhhh!!"

"blh ke bw dia sorg laki, u sorg pmpn bw naik keta ke sepital?"

gulppp~

hesitantly, "bolehhhhhhhh~"

hahaha.. bantai la labu, masa tebiu sume nye blh kann.. jdla nk wt tmbh work experience

last b4 kuar, miss tu ckp,
"actually, sy xde kuasa nk lantik pekerja baru, bos xde, outstation ke singapore, next two week baru dia balik, sy ni tlg saring kan je utk dia.. kalo lepas, u kena tebiu skali lagi ngn big boss."

@ @
   ^

ohooo, again kena tangguh..
org desperate ni tau x..

susahnye nk masuk keje!! -facepalm-

nk company sendiri r pasni, sendiri lantik diri sendiri jadik boss
huhhhh

org lain senang je dengar dpt kje, masuk kje, dpt gaji < ni paling jeles


alahaii, naseb badan..

'Ya Allah, murahkan lah rezki hamba mu ini.. seseungguhnya aku ingin berbakti kepada kedua ibubapa ku, gembirakan mereka, hantarkan mereka ke Mekah, permudahkanlah Ya Allah'

feeling it again

my depression is back
just after raya, i'm depressed again
during raya, i'm annoyed by all the questions
but after raya, i'm depressed
tonight, feeling like hell in my own house
i want to go out, out to the sea, to the park, anywhere but here
my own family make me feel like i'm not good enough for them
it's hell



self confident-zero
happy-zero
tears-100
angry-50
annoyed-50

now, everyone is better than me
i have nothing

i'm all alone
it's lonely~

DETERMINATE

"dosa menjauhkan kebahagiaan"

terbaca kt fb sorang kawan. maybe ada benarnye kata2 tu..
buat aku menilai diri sendiri, maybe aku tersalah meletakkan keutamaan pada hal2 dunia hingga leka tentang akhirat.

mungkin blum masanye aku mengecap kebahagiaan tu
pinta ku, agar aku sempat merasa itu sblm ku berjumpa penciptaku

heart broken- again n again
whether my career n my love life,

i'm suck at it

masa bljr di Ukm adalah masa yg terbaik bg aku
skit pon xde perasaan nk lengkapkan idup, single is rock

i want it back, all those feeling
it's great to be young, you're on top of the world
muahaha~

all those romance in books, in films,it's too good to be true
haihhh (face-palm)
i need to change, all this negativity is not 'macho' for me

 

DETERMINATE!!