jobsearch

 
setelah tanam anggur yg xmembuahkan hasil selama beberapa bulan, akhrnye aku mmng dh xsbar nk mula kje balik..
ngan ati separuh semangat + kawan yg sgt semangat,kami pergi ke ipoh (ipoh je ponn~) utk mencari sesuap nasik.. ecehh~

berpeluh pusing satu greentown cari kje yg xdela perlukan skill sgt utk kje, barula rasa cari kje zaman lama..
zaman skrg dpn lptp, ktik2 ngan jari je dh apply job..
mmng sgt2 lain rasa dia.. kaki sakit, ati pon sakit. penat2 pusing sana-sini, 1 je job yg reply suh g tebiu
ampehh.. kesimpulan : cara lama = cara baru. dua2 xde hasil. huhh!!

so, arini jejak kaki kembali ke ipoh(bg aku, ipoh tu besar laa.. 1st tyme g sndr ipoh,slalu abh yg bawakan.. huhuhu)

pas intebiu yg xberapa nk berjaya coz bos nye out station ke k.l < mmng la tersangat hampehhh.. penatt auu jalan jauh2, 2 jam tu dr bagan serai.
kawan kepada kawan aku, bw kami ke sini.. jajanggggg~

nama dia terpampang besar kat dinding tu, opkos la tempat utk graduan2 n jobseekers cam aku
upenyer lama dh menda alah ni ada kt ipoh nunn.. aku je xpenah tau. huhuhu
maklumla, duk kat ceruk..
after register, bg resume n so on.. akk tu tnya xnk join ke tebiu terbuka? ehh, silap 'cik'..
org skrg xleh pggl kakak2 ni, berasap je kepala dgr kann..
mmng terbaik layanan dieorg, xlokek menjawab soklan2 aku yg ala2 budak kmpg masuk bandar tuhh
mmng 1st review = 5star

langkah kanan ler kami arini..
ushar2 le mana ada job vacancy yg company dia dtg tebiu

sumenye 1 je vacancy, yg dtg adala dlm 15-20 org..
mmng berjanggut la tunggu..

2nd review = 4 star sbb job vacancy xkena ngan org yg dtg (mybe kami terjah tembok xkena kott, kena tang ari xbyk vacancy)

tgu dr kul 3 utk 1 je job tebiu, berjanggut tunggu, kul 4.45 baru pggl masuk tebiu.
 3rd review = 3.5 star

sbb dh inteviewer dia pon cm dh kalut2 nk hbskan candidate, maklumla dh nk balik,kul 5 kann..
sikit jela dia tanya, angguk2 je dia bila aku goreng pasal human resource, yg tebiu tu gurl (otai2 cm blh wat geng je,sengeh2..)

dh habis tanya, here comes the killer question

"u blh handle ke pekerja asing, bw dieorg medical checkup n so on.."

desperately "bolehhhh!!"

"blh ke bw dia sorg laki, u sorg pmpn bw naik keta ke sepital?"

gulppp~

hesitantly, "bolehhhhhhhh~"

hahaha.. bantai la labu, masa tebiu sume nye blh kann.. jdla nk wt tmbh work experience

last b4 kuar, miss tu ckp,
"actually, sy xde kuasa nk lantik pekerja baru, bos xde, outstation ke singapore, next two week baru dia balik, sy ni tlg saring kan je utk dia.. kalo lepas, u kena tebiu skali lagi ngn big boss."

@ @
   ^

ohooo, again kena tangguh..
org desperate ni tau x..

susahnye nk masuk keje!! -facepalm-

nk company sendiri r pasni, sendiri lantik diri sendiri jadik boss
huhhhh

org lain senang je dengar dpt kje, masuk kje, dpt gaji < ni paling jeles


alahaii, naseb badan..

'Ya Allah, murahkan lah rezki hamba mu ini.. seseungguhnya aku ingin berbakti kepada kedua ibubapa ku, gembirakan mereka, hantarkan mereka ke Mekah, permudahkanlah Ya Allah'

feeling it again

my depression is back
just after raya, i'm depressed again
during raya, i'm annoyed by all the questions
but after raya, i'm depressed
tonight, feeling like hell in my own house
i want to go out, out to the sea, to the park, anywhere but here
my own family make me feel like i'm not good enough for them
it's hell



self confident-zero
happy-zero
tears-100
angry-50
annoyed-50

now, everyone is better than me
i have nothing

i'm all alone
it's lonely~

DETERMINATE

"dosa menjauhkan kebahagiaan"

terbaca kt fb sorang kawan. maybe ada benarnye kata2 tu..
buat aku menilai diri sendiri, maybe aku tersalah meletakkan keutamaan pada hal2 dunia hingga leka tentang akhirat.

mungkin blum masanye aku mengecap kebahagiaan tu
pinta ku, agar aku sempat merasa itu sblm ku berjumpa penciptaku

heart broken- again n again
whether my career n my love life,

i'm suck at it

masa bljr di Ukm adalah masa yg terbaik bg aku
skit pon xde perasaan nk lengkapkan idup, single is rock

i want it back, all those feeling
it's great to be young, you're on top of the world
muahaha~

all those romance in books, in films,it's too good to be true
haihhh (face-palm)
i need to change, all this negativity is not 'macho' for me

 

DETERMINATE!!

 

mother-daughter bonding

today is the day~ (heheh)

today, hepy gegiler kuar ngan mak

slalu cm moody je, arini mmng super hepy je mak

mak blanja facial, kihkihkih..

slalu klo aku nk wat, mak akan cm fikir2 je nk blanja sbb aku ska pilih yg mahal

tp arini cm ngan hepy je blanja even mak aku nye murah dr aku

first tyme kiteorg g facial sesama masa aku kt matrik, lebey kurang 18 tahun tyme tu

masa balik cuti, tetiba mak ajak teman dia, memula cm ajak kawan je kadang2, 

tp sejak aku balik duk kt kmpg ni, dh cm aktvt bulanan kiteorg je..

aritu, aku belanja, arini mak belanja.. (hihihi~ ala2 gedik giteww)

aktvt peberet kiteorg sbb 

1. kiteorg leh tdo masa dia raba2 muka

2. sbb muka aku perlukan perhatian sebulan sekali, aku manusia pemalas yg nk jaga muka sendiri pun malas

3. suka sbb akk tu watkan lembut sgt2, urut2 skit, n dieorg nye produk wangi2 belaka.. i likeee~

actually, mak baik ati belanja sbb sian kt aku kot..

abis sebulan gaji utk roadtax n servis keta. facepalm~ gaji last lak tuhh

uwarghhh, i love my PKR, ko nye duit belanja kalah anak sepuluh!!!

tp sian dia, sbb aku xpenah lg nk hias lawa2 keta aku, calar balar mmng byk la sampai xterbilang dh

even cuci dia pn adala sebulan sekali

hahahahaha

so, cam fair la kannn

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"My Life Would Suck Without You"


Guess this means you're sorry
You're standing at my door
Guess this means you take back
All you said before
Like how much you wanted
Anyone but me
Said you'd never come back
But here you are again

[Chorus:]
'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

[Verse 2:]
Maybe I was stupid for telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong for trying to pick a fight
I know that I've got issues
But you're pretty messed up too
Either way I found out
I'm nothing without you

[Chorus:]
'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

[Bridge:]
Being with you is so dysfunctional
I really shouldn't miss you
But I can't let you go
Oh, yeah

[Chorus:]
'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you
'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

ok, i know, wannor SUCKS

eheKK~
can u believe it???!!

baru tau kelly clarkson penah nyanyi lagu ni, terdengar masa tgk 'MEN WITH KIDS'
ok,  first dgr, apasal lagu nih cm sedap je,
cari2 lyric, aikk? awat lirik cm kena batang idung nihh
cari2 video, seyes, mmng kena batang idung,

setiap perkataan tu memberi makna idup aku skrg,
seriously!!

I hate myself
wahakk~

wahhaakkk~

xmatang :p

apa perasaan korg kalo org slalu ckp korg xmatang??

" grow upppp, girl?"

ohh, aku rasa nk sumbat enpon dlm mulut org tersebut.
rasa habis matang la umur 32 tahun tuhh? ptuihh, sendiri rasa, matang laa

tensyen aku, rasa nk kapak2 je mulut org tersebut cm 'wrong turn 4' tuhh
baru padan muka

uwargghhh, bpe byk post tensyen2 nih? mmng hidup tunggang langgang 2,3 bulan nihh


dlm dunia ada mcm2 org, klo kita ditakdirkan jumpe yg baik, sgtla beruntung
tp klo jumpe yg xbaik, tunggang langgang la idup



kurangkan sifat ke'aku'an,
lebihkan sifat ke'kita'an,
kerjasama, berbincang,
insyallah bahagia keluarga.


p/s: erin, aku dh hbskan sume episod charmed n cold case.
maklumla, pengangguran berleluasa skrg.. hahaha..

Hamba lindungi anda - P.ramlee (6jahanam)

Hamba lindungi anda - P.ramlee (6jahanam)


sejak dua menjak ni, ari2 rasa nk dgr suara lunak p.ramlee.
favorite song, hamba lindungi anda

xtau pasaipa bila dgr beliau nyanyi rasa sgt romantis n lagu tu penuh dgn janji

itula sumpah kekanda,

 hamba lindungi anda, 

dengan seribu daya,

 walau terkorban nyawa, 

rela, hamba rela.

hamba akan setia hingga akhir riwayat,

~~~~~~~

weird, indeed~

patut ke melompat ke lagu sepanjang zaman tu, buat ringtone?
kehkehkeh

mak abah pon xwat jd ringtones npon dieorg, mmng oldies laa skang
jgn tekejut tetiba dengar suara p.ramlee out of no where nanti,
tu ringtone aku.. hahaha..

 

first day w/out job drained me out,

bangun > lptp > masak > mkn > lptp > tdo > lptp > g tgk org meninggal > lptp > tdo.

surf internet pon dh memboringkan skrg

why????  why me??

ehekk, wat adegan filem lak kt sini, shuhh, p cri keje

hait, haitt~


projek pe nk wat eh??
dlu, cadangan - lwtn ke perpustakaan desa berdekatan, byk nihh, bagan serai-taiping-parit buntar.
tp xde supporters, bluekk.. xkn nk g sengsorg lakk

maknanye, ari2 rindu korg la, kan 7gegurlz? ahakzz

p/s:

hurmmm~

HARI GURU 2013

lepas bukak.. syok bukak hadiah ni. debar2 jerr..

Ana's wedding day. congrats ana..

 laii3x, pick which one u want~

sume still single, tgk SIGN yerr.. mcm2 ada..
hihihi..

a week in KL with u gurlz, make me feel young
ahakkss!!

SINGLE IS ROCK~


*balik2 lepas rindu kt PKR6535, trus kena saman, kantoi lesen mati..
P/S: sesapa yg lesen dh mati tu sila cpt2 wat, klo x, wajib renew 2 thn.. nasebbb badannn~

rindu sama ini budak

dan ini budak. dieorg sudah kidnap sama sy punya kura2 pink @,@

the worse entry ever, please don't read it my dear friends..

after a year x update blog, today update blog with curse..

arrgggghhhhhh!!!! MEN SUCKS.

I'M FUCKING HATE THEM!!!!!

there, the curse word, publicly..

blog is my only place to be honest in my writing.
 fb got too many students n friends

blog is more private.. ahekk, kentut ko la wan, lg la public, but i don't care.

men, they are sucks, n i'm FUCKING HATE them rite now.

i should just live in fantasy world, where there is no pain, no heart ache, n absolutely no HIM!!

what an arrogant n heartless man

i should know better than to fall in love with him

again n again, i find the wrong man to love
it's a habit i think, to fall to someone who doesn't love me

so pathetic


i'm stupid

clueless

thrusting

hoping

desperate

moron

n BANGANG-


there2, stop thrusting them, stop loving them n love me instead- kamenashi

haitttt2, come back myself, u doesn't need man to live.. u have family, u have job eventhough not for longg..
u have everythng, just go back to urself, u'll be fine. back to ur small world, just u n ur laptop, u're not ready to go outside, come back.. - myself


i'm good in my job rite now

i still have job

i got friends n colleague

i got my cute-mute students

i got my mom

i got my laptop

n that's it, i have enough..  


                -u have enough, stop searching n let's fate do their job-